a woman after God's heart

i can't explain it... but it's really mind blowing to realize days passed so swiftly. just one week ago, i finished my set of night shift... looking forward to coming home and meeting my family. and i remember i didn't sleep much that day. after i was home, an hour later i was back in PJ area, at IKEA with mom and sis. today i am home, and my sister is married and staying with her new set of family members. it was last night where i was so stressed up, as if it was my wedding dinner. i was running here and there for sis and bro-in-law; trying to rectify things which went wrong. i was instantly "vomiting out" a speech for my sister coz i lost her paper. i had to go up the stage and bleh whatever i can to fill in some gap. it was yesterday the tea ceremony.. it was yesterday my sister coloured my finger nails for me. it was yesterday i saw my sister woke up in her pyjamas and gave her a massage before she begins her busy wedding day. it was two nights ago where sis ...

it's my favourite season of the year! okay, i know it's not that near.. but well, stop and think for a while. time flies isn't it? it was like yesterday i went through the orientation at working place, going to HR numerous times to collect documents and being yelled at for being slow at work. *stop thinking, open your eyes, look at the calender* it is mid of October already! in two months' time, i can include "one year experience" in my work resume. having said that, ten months just slipped away... just like that. i failed numerous times in certain areas of my life. for instant, i wanted to do so much but so little (or perhaps) nothing was done. my dreams were left as merely dreams. motivation decreasing, life disappointment increasing... :( i want to label myself as "pandai cakap, tak pandai buat". spiritually not heading forward either. friendship wise, i haven't been pursuing actively i suppose. i read a quote yesterday which goes like this ...