a woman after God's heart

Whenever I miss home, I look at the moon.. and know that home is not far because we are looking at the same moon.  Whenever I have doubts about my future, I look to the sky.. and know that my Father in heaven is looking down on me.  Oh, so many feelings tonight. Oh, so many thoughts. Help me to overcome this phase.

Today, I must commend a male chauvinist. Personally, I really dislike dealing with a male chauvinist because he tends to be "I am better than thou". I can smell the aura usually after few conversations.  Last night, I was working with a typical male chauvinist. I can tell from his look. Anyways, work was overwhelming for all of us and he was a little above his usual stress threshold. I had to interrupt him amidst of the wars that we were fight and I had  good intention. I offered him help but he threw his temper on me. My facial expression instantly changed and I gave him a cold treatment thereafter. I mean, I wasn't pushing him.. I was just a messenger.  Anyway, I wasn't emo emo type and trying my best to maintain professionalism despite how mad I was towards him wherever he approached me after that. And I was shocked when he actually made effort to mend things better by acknowledging his wrongdoing, offer me sweets, even more shocked when he apologized! I couldn...

My post tonight is dedicated to a good man I once knew.  Dearest Dato', You are the only doctor whom I will ever allow to kiss me on my cheeks and myself to sit on your lap.  I know you never have evil intention and love us like your grandchildren.  I remember the first time you complimented me because I explained to the patient in Malay why he needs an OGDS before he could disturb you writing your notes at our nursing counter and you gave me a pat on my shoulder and said, "wah, you explained so well!" Ever since then, you often disturb me and sometimes kissed me on my cheek and made me blush! I remembered I teased you too when the pants you wore seemed loose, and ever since then, I never see you wearing it anymore. Every morning I looked forward in greeting you and getting a warm hug from you especially when days were bad. There are times you patiently explained to me things that I do not understand.. Sometimes I got a little frustrated with your cool and calm approach b...

When I have a place on my own in future, I wanna have a big big bed ALL by myself. Wah, so fun to roll here and there, sleep in all sorts of directions and position, and a space on my own. Moreover, I am not very big size. Then, I'll coin my bedroom as the most cozy place ever........ Soft coloured walls, not so bright coloured bed sheet, dark coloured curtains.. Oh, with a table and comfortable chair for reading and writing. Heh heh. Oh well, one of the random thoughts I have tonight. When I have more money, I probably will invest in a bigger bed and a space by myself.  Reading a book on Patience now... After a few pages, I told to myself, "I am not patient at all!" Oh God, help me to have long suffering. I'll write again soon. Adios.

Tonight is one of those night that I feel full... spiritually. I met up with my cousin whose priority is God and catching up with him helped me to realign my priorities. He always tells me, "what is important at the end of the day when you meet God?" Success to him is not money definitely. He has been to few places to see the other side of the world where people may have lesser but much happier inside. Why are we complaining so much? Time to get uncomfortable and move.. And of course, after the meeting with my cousin, my pillar of support in Malaysia chatted with me via iMessage and shared certain things which made me think deeply. She has been my biggest support when I am away from home.  Well, time will keep moving and events will come to past. I am excited to know what is ahead and pray that God will grant me the desire of my heart and not let it be like a flower that withers away. Terima kasih Bapa kerana menyayangiku.