The month of May.

Usually a month has a maximum of 31 days. This month felt longer than that. The sequence of events and the anxiety of waiting definitely prolong the 31 days. Right now, I'm in a confused stage. After I paid my contract and resigned from my workplace, while i was serving the two months notice, there were events that made me think twice about resigning. I question: is it God that is trying to tell me something? Or... Is it otherwise?

I'm less worried about the finances or other factors... But am more troubled about whether i am walking in His ways. I understand God gives us free will.. But Lord, at this moment, can you take away this liberty of having free will and direct me to the paths which You have prepared for me? Just like Jacob who cheated Esau for his father's blessings.. I think I understand the importance of my Father's blessing and am almost that desperate to have His blessings... because it will change one's life. Dear God, please hear me.

In my own mind and understanding, i'm too far in turning back. I have almost reach the next checkpoint... And i don't want to turn back, sincerely speaking. But again, let His will be done, not mine. So, i commit them unto His hands.

"In all things, give thanks." Amen.

Comments

peiling said…
dear waishin, been a long time since we last chatted! just want to encourage you that though waiting is hard and sometimes we wish the Lord will just drop the answer from the sky. but waiting is totally worth it. so keep waiting upon the Lord and hear Him through His Word and godly believers ya. i don't know what His will is for you, but i do know that from my experiences of waiting in the past, the Lord has been so wonderful and it breaks us n surrenders us to His will. times of waiting are often milestones in the christian life because it teaches us perseverance and dependence upon the Lord. hang in there ya. He makes all things beautiful in His time. :)

love,
peiling
3:48 pm
VaL said…
hi pei ling! for a moment, my brain was scanning through the list of names i have inside my memory to match yours. lol! it has been a loooong time! you are friends with clarissa too right? thanks for dropping by!
4:32 pm
Unknown said…
Sometimes I also wish that God will tell me which is the path He wants me to walk on.
4:24 am
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