he loves me.. he loves me not..

Yesterday I viewed a YouTube clip entitled "Women are thinkers" by Russell Peters. Well, I recommend it to you. As funny as he may sound, there is truth in it. We, women think all the time. For example, this morning I woke up thinking if he loves me or he loves me not. Then, a hint of sadness creeps in and needless to say, more thoughts too. Examples again, "I am not that important.. Oh well, if I were, he would have called or texted or whatever IT now brings." *tick* the button of digging all not so nice memories has been activated. Oops, boy you are doomed! And picture the defensive lady prepared for war with her armor.

That's the truth, by the way. Now, my other side of the brain is telling me that there are better things to think about.. for example, how beautiful is God's creation, be thankful for a lovely Saturday morning.. And I know God wants to tell me that He loves me no matter what. Come to think about it, thank God, God is God and not like us. If not, He must have been very emotional by my ignorance towards him. Imagine God saying, "I am upset today because the love of my life is not talking to me :( This is not the first time! Argh, I have decided to love her less. And I can't fully function today coz I am upset. Everything is gloomy." Oh dear, we would have been vanished by God. But praise the Lord that God is not anything near to that. He is love.

1 John 4:8 Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

That's the kind of love Christ has for us, and to be imitators of Christ, that's the love we ought to portray. Whatever emotions or thoughts I may be having right now, I know He has promised me that He will be with me through it all.


Comments

Clarissa said…
I feel you! But stay strong, the greatest is God's love!
4:21 pm
VaL said…
:) trying to live that out.. but am still human..
10:46 pm
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