Randomness.

One of the observations I made today: when a person is upset/unhappy/sad or other synonyms, he/she will choose to torture himself/herself. One very extreme example would be (which I have seen a couple of times) attempting to take his own life when a downfall happens. Husband and wife argues, either one chooses to commit suicide. Yes, the observation is made from my own life. I was upset (yes, I am upset although I said I was okay.. Typical girl behavior) with a remark made by my partner. Well, of course he meant well but it was too bitter for me to digest immediately. I appreciated his frankness but my self-esteem was lowered because of his remark. So end up, I chose to ordered an alcoholic beverage knowing the fact that I will get tachycardia and rashes over my body.. but I still choose it anyway.. BECAUSE I was unhappy. When I reached home, I was scratching here and there thanks to the mosquitoes and also the alcohol. Then I thought to myself, "what have I gotten myself into?"

Well, let's change the normal ways we live our lives. When you (or me) are upset in future, let choose to treat ourselves better. The counter part has already damaged some part of us, we should love ourselves more. Do something good to your soul like.. take a walk in a park and think of all the wonderful things that God has given you, drink hot chocolate instead of alcohol, eat a piece of cake, watch a stand up comedian show... And digest the source of unhappiness and be less emotional.

For me, I appreciate truths rather than lies.. But many a times, truths are hard to swallow. I swallow them eventually. For now, I need to live with my fast heart beats and rash temporarily.