breaking apart

It was a horrible day. And I was challenged with this gratitude project.. and out of all the upsetting events, I had to think of three things to be grateful for. Early morning I was like... is there anything to be grateful for?!!! I was freaking mad.. and was more disappointed when the person I wanted to talk to was busy and didn't bother. I wonder how special I am to him. I just needed 5-10 minutes of his time... 😔😔😔

I wonder when is my morning coming. The song says after all the hurting, the healing will come. And I am trying to be patient while waiting. I am slowly cracking, I don't know how long can I last. 

Yes I am very desperately tonight. Dear God, I hope you hear me. 

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